My sweet lil' angel baby  / Mommy Loves You Ashlee (Mother)
Think of you everyday baby girl. Having Michael here is a blessing but hard sometimes too. He looks so much like you. You could've been identical twins...I swear.   I will always love you sweety and not a moment passes that you aren't on my mind or in my heart. Till we meet again. Love you Asherbug Close

Just thinking of you and your big blue eyes  / Brittany Bond (cousin)

Ash

Wow 5 years old. I can't believe it. 5 years old you would have been it seems like just yesterday you were just a baby. I miss you so much. I think about you all the time. I miss the way you always greeted me with a hi as soon as i walked through the door. And all the fun we had together. I loved how me and the boys would be watching tv and you would crawl up and turn it off on us and we would all scream Ashlee just so you would turn it back on and i don't know how many times Alex would get up to turn the tv back on. Probably about a million. I miss you Ashlee  and i want you to know you always have a special place in my heart and i will never forget you and your smiles. I love you so much sweetie pie.

love you always and forever

Brittany

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Happy 5th Birthday Ash!  / Mommy Misses You! (Mother)

Wow Asherbug! You would be 5 yrs. old today. You would've started Kindergarden this year. Still hard to swallow at moments to think about. Our emotions and feelings for you haven't changed one bit. The pain will never go away for what we have endured and lost when it comes to you and your brother. The two of you with Victor was our world. The three of you completed us as one. To create, carry, and give birth to you as our child was an unexplainable wonderful experience. To have you taken from us is torment. I hope Al will help you celebrate in heaven today. Lots of hugs and kisses for you both! We love you both very much and miss you tremendously. Hope you both will help keep a watch over your little brother who is on the way.

XOXO

Love you Always and Forever,

Daddy, Mommy, Victor & soon to be Michael

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Thinking of you!  / Mommy

Hi Ash,

Mommy just wanted to let you know that I think of you everyday. You will always have a place in my heart. You were my daughter. Carrying you and giving birth to you was different in its own way from the boys. You will always be special to me. My baby girl forever. Hard to believe you would've started Kindergarden this year. You would be such a big girl now.

I hope you are excited about the new addition coming. Couple more weeks and we will know the sex of the baby (hopefully). Can't wait to find out! This is a good thing for mommy and daddy. We needed this addition to help us feel complete cause we never wanted just one child. We were so happy and complete with you three.

Miss you always and forever my sweet angel. Hugs and kisses!

Loving you always,

Mommy

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Sharing your sorrow....  / Teri Chandler

May the memories you have help get you through the rough days.

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3yrs. & pain is still here.  / Mommy Loves You! (Mother)
It has been 3 yrs. and the emptiness is still here. I miss you so much. From this day 3 yrs. ago, I have not felt complete. I don't know if I ever will. You and your brother made us a whole family that was complete. I still wonder everyday what you would look like right now and what you would be doing. If you would have long blonde hair or would it be more reddish? Would you still have your big blue eyes? I think about the two of you daily and always hope that you are okay. I will always wish that if I can't have you here with me now that I wish I could see you just one more time. You chickens were my world. Now your brother is alone and it is tough for us and him. I try to make the best for him being an only child now, but it seems so much more difficult without you and your brother here to all entertain each other. God bless you my sweet child. I will always and forever hold you in my heart and never stop loving you. You will always be my baby girl Ashlee. My Asherbug. XOXO
Merry Christmas in heaven.

Loving you always,
Mom, Dad, Victor

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I miss you more each day!  / Tia Bond (Aunt)
It's Aunt Tia. I finally have a computer so I can let you and the world know how much I love you. By the time you came along I already knew I loved being an aunt. I couldn't get enough of your brothers and I knew it would be more of the same with you. But with you there will always be something special that I didn't have with your brothers. I was there when you were born. I got to watch the whole thing from the other end for a change. It was amazing. To watch you come into this world and take your first breath and hear your first cry. I have yet to see something else that is so beautiful. Along with my love for you came a joy of being able to shop for a little girl again. My girls had gotten to old for me to dress them in what I loved and thought was cute. And buying things for your brothers just wasn't the same. Face it boys clothes and toys just aren't as cute. Although there was not alot I enjoyed my alone time that I got with you. You were always so happy. And taking you out in public was always a joy. You would stop every passerby with your cute little "Hi!" and your big beautiful eyes. I will never forget the day that you had Aunt Anita and me in tears with laughter with the way you were flirting with Josh at lunch. In such a short time you were an expert at becoming the center of attention from everyone. So I'm sure you have everyone in heaven wrapped right around your little finger just as you did here on earth. So even though your time here was short I am very thankful you came into my life. And until we see each other again, I will look up to heaven and give a cute little "Hi!" as I am sure you are giving one back. I love you and miss you very much! XOXO  Aunt Tia Close

To my daughter, Happy Birthday.  / Mommy Misses You

Ashlee,

You would be three years old today. I sit and wonder what things would be like today. I try to imagine what you would look like right now. How long would your hair be? Would your eyes still be a beautiful bold blue? What would your personality be like? How big would you be? I just can't stop thinking how more beautiful you would be today. 
I miss you so much sweetheart and still have this big emptiness in me where you and your brother would fill. I try to be happy and make the best of things, but sometimes it is just too hard to not think about what I have lost and want back. My life right now isn't bad, I just feel like it isn't the life I have chosen. To me it is just getting through each day for now. 
When I see other children that would be your age it feels like a kick in the gut. I watch what they do and wonder would you be doing the same thing? It is hard sometimes to not envy that parent and their child. I still ask God why? Just so difficult to bear the pain. 
I love you my sweet angel. You will always be in my heart. I hope you have a wonderful day today. I am sure all our loved ones are with you celebrating your special day with you. 
Happy 3rd Birthday, Ashlee. Watch over us and help keep everyone safe.

Loving you always and forever,
Mommy

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Angel / Jennifer Carney (Wal*Mart Friend )
Ashlee, you were the sweetest little thing we all lost you so early I can only imagine what you'd be like today. You probably would be exactly the same so sweet and innocent stealing anyones heart you met. Close

i miss you  / Brittany (biggest cousin )
hunni i thought about you the other day and today and i wish you were here with us i miss babysitting you kids all together and how much of a pain it was to take care of all three of you kids like going and feeding you then go and get alex and victor some food then after cleaning you up so you didn't have any food on your face because you always had something on your face then going and pick up alex and victor's food because they always made a mess with their food too sometimes they had stuff on their faces like you and they always gave me a hard time when i went to go clean it off i know alex and victor would run the other way when i came near them with a washcloth and  always had to chase them around the house then when i finally got them they let me wipe their faces then they went off and played again or they watched tv or something and you always followed me around like if i went into the kitchen you would go after me and if i went into the living room you were right behind me even if i had to go to the bathroom you were there too hunni i miss having you around all the time and i couldn't wait to babysit you again and now i miss babysitting you like i babysit victor i can't wait to see you again when i go to heaven i can't wait to see you alex grandma smith granny cotton my grandpa bond and my friend brittany derousie's dad "daddie d" i miss all of you and i wish you were all here for one day just one day all our loved ones could be back on earth so we could see what they look like and who they are today i want you and al to come back for one day so i could see you both and cuddle with you all on the couch so it could be a brittany sandwich again and you all can fall asleep and i could fall asleep but i'm afraid that when i wake up you and al will be gone and then i would be sad again and i don't want to cry because i hate crying it makes me sad for like ever because then i can't get you out of my head and i don't want to i never will let you and al out of my head i miss you so much and i will always love you both and that will never change never ever i love you both

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I am so sorry!  / Rachelle Castiglione (none)
Wow, what a beautiful baby! ! have a boy the same age she was when she so sadly departed from your lives. He looks like a boy version of her! My son whos six, shares a birthday with her. I hope you are healing day by day. You have our thoughts and prayers always. I am so sorry. Close

Wishing you hope & healing  / Terra-Lynn Coggan
Please accept my sincere condolences for the loss of your precious baby girl, Ashlee Hazel-Marie. I am so very sorry for your loss. May you find strength as you journey your loss.

Wishing you hope & healing

Terra-Lynn Coggan
Founder & President
Bears for Bereaved Mommies
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My sweet angel  / Mommy (Mother)

To my sweet angels,

It has been a year since you have gone to be in heaven. It is still so difficult to know that a year has gone by and you are not here with us. Everyday that goes by, not a moment do we not think about you and wish that you were here. We still ask the "why's" and will never understand why it happened to such two sweet beautiful little angels.

We know it would be so easy to let the pain, hurt, and anger just take over us and envelop in the sorrow, but we do everything we can to make sure we are one step ahead of that pain and hurt. We are doing our best to stay strong for your brother. He is the one thing and the only thing that is keeping us going everyday. God spared his life for a reason.

Times are hard right now with the holidays coming. It is very hard to celebrate without the two of you here. I know we have to do this for Lil' Victor, but it isn't going to be the easiest thing for us this year. Last year was just a blur and we don't even remember that day.

Ashlee I can't stop thinking about you and wondering what you would've learned by now and how your looks would've changed. Always wondering what you would look like right now. I have a hard time dealing with the fact that we just didn't have enough time with you to build up the memories. Our memories are so few and at times it makes me so frustrated to not have more. I always try to keep in mind that you were such a happy little girl. Always smiling and if you weren't smiling you could see in your eyes that you were happy. I was so excited when you started walking, but of course you were able to get into everything and anything. It was okay though, because I actually loved every moment of it. I will never forget the few times that you managed to get into your toy box and couldn't get back out. The first time you did it I laughed so hard to see you stuck in your toy box and most of your toys laying out on the floor. I have some memories that I play over and over in my head about you. The first one is you with music. Any time you heard any kind of music you would just start rocking to it. It could even be someone singing to you and you would rock away to the song. It tickled me pink to watch you do that everytime you heard music. My second memory is you with the TV. You learned where the power button was and constantly turned it on and off. We even put a stool there to block you from doing it, but within days you learned to climb on the stool and just sit there playing with the buttons on the TV. I thought it to be cute, but you would make your brothers very mad when they were trying to watch cartoons. I remember when you learned to say "hi". After you learned the word that is all we heard everyday. All day long we would hear you saying "hi" over and over. We loved it though. We would play "peek-a-boo" with you and you were so funny about it. All I had to say to you was "peek-a" and you would cover your little eyes with your hands backwards and then pull them away and say "boo" to me. It was just so adorable to watch the way you played "peek-a" with us. You proved to us in such a short time that you were a quick learner and very smart. Nothing got passed you without you catching on. You only had to be shown once and you knew how to do it. We miss you and love you so very much Asherbug. I can't ever tell you how much joy and fulfillness you brought to our lives. You made our family complete.

I hope you have a wonderful christmas in heaven. Please keep us safe and wrapped with love on the difficult days that are coming. Help Alex take care of Lady and give your brother, Grandma Smith, Granny Cotton, and Grandpa Blair lots and lots of your big wet kisses that I know you so much loved to give.

May you be safe forever now in God's arms. We love you so much and will never stop missing you baby girl.

Lots of Hugs and kisses for you. Till we meet again.

Merry Christmas with love,

Mommy, Daddy, & Lil' Victor

 

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Beautiful Princess in Heaven  / Mylene Roberge (mommy to angel Sean )
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter Ashlee.  She is just gourgoes, beautiful wide eyes, where laid an old soul.  I know to well the heart ache and pain of loosing a precious son.  My only child, became an angel in my arms, a week after his 3rd heart surgery, on July 8th, 2005 he's forever 8 months young.  Ashlee and Sean both share the beautiful wide eyes and their smiles together could light up the whole world.  I'm sure they are enjoying themselves with all the other little angels, and the older angels are taking turns rocking and cuddling them.  Ashlee your family misses you terribly, please embrace them with your beautiful soft angel wings, sending them comfort and love.
((((((((((((hugs to everyone))))))))))))))))
Ashlee and Sean heavenly friends,
Mylene - Maman to Angel Sean
http://sean-lockhart.memory-of.com  
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For Ashlee's family  / Irena Hill (UK)

                                  

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In my heart forever little one  / NannieT Blair (Grandma)
Ashlee,
     You were with us for such a short time but you will be in our hearts forever. I miss you so very much sweet potato. Oh how I miss your beautiful smiles and sweet little voice jibber jabbering.
You were our only blue eyed grandchild (took after me I am sure :)  )
This time of the year is so hard. I have pictures of last year taking you , Alex, Victor and your cousin Mariah to Beaver Lake for the Halloween doings. You were so wide eyed, you and Alex loving every minute of it.
I can't go there this year. I am glad we didn't know that it would be your only time going.
And I'm so glad we took you to the animal farm too.  The pictures of that are priceless... any picture of you is priceless. There are just too few of them.
I cry for your loss every day.. you and Alex .  I ask him to give you butterfly kisses for me and sing the Mockingbird song to you for me.
I miss you Angel and love you very much. I hope your saw your birthday balloons and care bear.
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If we only knew  / Grandma Parrish Grandpa Parrish (Gram and Gramp )
Ashlee,Our Sweet Angle Baby,
Who would have thought that you would not have been here on your 2nd Birthday... Never would we have been able to handle that, but if we could have we would have kissed you and hugged you so much more..We would not have been able to stop,so I guess that is a blessing, if there is one..  
We would have played with you more and laugh at all the things that you were doing and thinking about all the wonderful things you would have learned over the year,  We did not and so the empty feeling that we have for you and Alex can not be explained.....
The thought that I do have to hold is you and Brother with Gandma Smith and Grandma Cotton.  That is the only thing I could tell the girls,{Brit Morgan Felicia]  on that night when the feeling was so hopeless was, "the only one who is smiling now is Grandma Smith and Grandma Cotton".
We love you and talk about you and Alex all the time you will live on in our souls, so till we can kiss and hug again, you are in a beautiful place and both of you are happy,ALL IS GOOD.
Love and longing,
Grandma & Grandpa Parrish
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Happy Birthday  / Mommy (Mommy)

Ashlee,
You would be 2 today. How hard it is not to think about what you would look like now and what you would be doing. How long your beautiful hair would be? What you would be saying?
God how I wish we weren't going through this. I would just love to know what our future would've hold with you. We cherished every moment we had with you because you were our last and knew we weren't going to experience any of it again. Now I feel robbed of that. We never got a fair chance to really get to know you as our daughter and it just doesn't seem fair.
You are and always will be our precious angel. Our baby girl forever. We love you so much Ashlee and miss you tremendously.
May you have a great day in heaven with all your loved ones there. Give your brother lots of hugs and kisses for us. We miss you both so much!

Happy Birthday Ashlee.
 
Loving you forever,
Mommy

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I love and miss you terrible !!!!!  / Brittany ((big cousin) )
i love and miss you terrible and don't kno what to do i can't think about all these people that are here without you i kno you had to go through that and it hurt our hearts i can't even blame anyone for how the fire starts and everytime i lit a candle in my room i think about the times we had before your doom i think about when we used to have fun and play i think about you and him all the time everyday i bite my lip and try not to cry for all the times we had but why i don't kno why god wanted you when he did cause we needed you way more then him so i'm sorry for what you went through my days are cold and grey i love and miss you terrible thatsall i got to say <3 love you always ~Brittany~ Close

Ashlee / Christine Lanning (Great Aunt )
Hi there angle, 
I never actually got to met you.  The last time I saw your mom and dad, Alex and Victor, you mom was pregnant for you.  At that time we knew that you were a girl, but that was all we knew.
I've looked at your pictures and how beautiful you were.  I hate that I will never get to know you, even just for a little while. 
My youngest daughter is named Ashley, and she was so excited that one of her cousins carried her name (we know your name has nothing to do with her's, but let's keep that a secret).  You come from such a large family, you never even got to know the half of it, and then again there is that half that you didn't want to know, LOL.  No matter whether we met you or not, there was still that love, the love of family, and knowing that you were part of ours.

May someday we meet,
Aunt Christine
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